STRANGER

I think I might have found my serendipity, or maybe trouble? Or maybe a fairytale?
I don't know, i feel comfortable but I'm afraid. What if he turns out to be some creep? Or some murderer? Criminal?

Ok so here is how it went.
Yesterday, I was bored in the evening so I went to this online chatting site, and met couple of uninteresting people, that maybe only wants to hook up. Then, I entered this chat where it was this 24 male australian dude. So I just talked to him, at first it was not dirty, it was not dirty at all the whole time actually, but sometimes he would like hint some slightly sexual comments, but it didn't sound very horrible so I continued talking to him, for hours, just about life and how we feel. That's when I felt this attraction and also, my heart racing, and I'm smiling at the things he says. He sure knows how to pull at a girl's heart and make me smile. He is sucha sweetheart, but things like this is too good to be true right?

I don't really believe that something can happen out of this, but yes I agree with him that I can't deny I felt an attraction. I asked him if nothing happened, just chatting, and he is fine, and he would move on cos he knows this is just the internet and yeah, it's impossible. I don't know what to feel, but he makes me happy, I feel loved for once, like special. It has been a really long time some guy I felt something towards made me feel special, it has been maybe 3 or 5 years already. Every girl deserves to be loved, but not lied to. So, I am trying not to believe whatever he says. Just nice after the chat, I switched on my television and this dating nightmare programme was airing, so I watched it and it's about the people you meet on dating sites, the people might be criminals, knowing more about you and luring you in with their lies and sweetness. Could it be God's sign to tell me this guy is not who he says he is?

However, I asked him what if I'm a fat girl with ugly skin, and he said fat girls are beautiful too, what matters are the attractions he have experienced whilst talking to me, we merely talked clean. I don't know whether to believe his words, but I hope they're genuine, if not, this is just a waste of time.

Then, we exchanged emails. I am really curious to how he looks like. I know, I might be like the society, but everybody would see appearances first right? That's what I asked him, and he said it doesn't matter. I'm thinking of all the negativity now, what if he is some creep, pervert, psycho? Okay, I could just block him right hahaha luckily for that! :)

I think if he saw my face or I saw his, and I'm turned off, I can't deny that if I saw his face and he isn't what I want, I would just not talk to him? I dont know, let's see how it goes. Hopefully he is the guy I've been searching for, since I like caucasian, he is an Australian so yeah :)