STRANGER

My first ever real liking towards any boy was when I was only 15 years old. Yes I have had crushes since I was at the age of 7 years old, but they were completely different to what I felt when I was 15 years old and met this boy that I might have liked (or loved) for a pretty long time.

I'm now turning 20 and I still do have nostalgia about it. I have to admit that I've not moved on in these 6 years, but I've tried to move on, just not yet to finding the right one to move on to. I've liked many guys along the way. Last year I thought this guy was the one (yeah cheesy to say The One). I felt that he was, my gut told me so. I didn't like him at first but he liked me and then I like him, but he shows no sign of wanting anything more but this platonic liking moments.

He asks around about me, looks at me shyly and all that but did not even make a move. I don't thinnk he is ready, but I know he seems interested. I guess these things take time and it's like the 3 seconds of courage kinda thing, but everybody's so afraid to fall and get hurt. The only solution is waiting for the right time, I am not that kind of person that who settle down for less than what I feel. I don't want to hurt anybody but neither will I want to be unhappy. Feeling loved is good but it doesn't mean I feel good about it. Treat others the way you want to be treated, that's how I go about my life.

Definitely at times, I would think over and be like, woah I'm already 20 yet single my whole life, but why the second thought? I'm happy with having friends around, I have guy and girl friends, I have family. These are important, I'm having the best time of my life, but with a lover is just a bonus, not a neccessity.