This speaks for me so much. I don't mind being alone, I'm happy

but sometimes I just want to feel what it feels like to be in love again.

I just miss that feeling, because I miss you and it has always been so easy for you to move on, now you're (I think) getting married, it depresses me and listening to those songs brings back so much memories about you, especially during long rides alone. How I met you, how you tried so cute ways in getting my number, how I went out together, how you were sure at that time that you had strong feelings for me. I still remember every single detail. You've made it seem so easy to move on from me, I've been so lost since three years ago after you were gone from my life, I thought I could handle it, it seems easy at first but 1 year passed and the next few years ahead I've been in misery from missing you because I think I might still have a tinge of feeling for you. Misery loves company. I saw you at the party last year, it was nice seeing you, but it wasn't so nice seeing you with another girl, whom you're maybe marrying. However, your gaze, the way you looked at me was so familiar, I couldn't forget. 

This sucks, always this feeling, I think of you sometimes at night before I go to sleep, sometimes I feel happy sometimes I don't. I don't like what I am without you, like I'm afraid to fall and love another again because I feel like nobody else is the one I'm looking for. I've tried to forget but too afraid to put my heart out there any more. I don't blame you but just my past. Waiting for my mind to know the right one again. He will be the one who will make me forget you.

I didn't tell many people about you, I want to forget about it and not speak of it again but I also want to remember, because it was a time when I was happy in love and you made that happen, nobody should know about it, I should just keep it jarred in my heart, keep it hidden.

UGHHHHH :( listening to Fireworks always reminiscence of us. Someone like you too. This feeling is coming back and it has to stop creeping its way inside me It's true when they say your first love is the hardest to forget. It sucks when we didn't even make it that far because of you and me. UGGHHHHHH