STRANGER

I'm nothing like her I know. You prefer her more than me, you show more concern to her than me, you take her things for her, you even prefer her than me, then why do I feel this strong attraction to you when I know you are feeling for her. You can just answer who you liked in this class when you were asked by them, I thought you wouldn't answer that but I guess I was just delusional all the while when I thought you had strong feelings towards me. I was wrong, so very wrong.
I'm always forgotten. No guys would ever like me I know. I can never compare to anyone. I'm not pretty, I'm not attractive, I'm just.... nothing. I have been single my whole life. I don't even know if guys liked me, okay I know they do, when my friends tell me, but why not even one would fight for me and prove that they like me enough to confess, why am I not worthy enough. :( yes, this is my sob story. When I like someone, nothing happens at all, even if the feelings are mutual, this brings me back to when I was 15, when I liked you, you loved me, but didn't even fight for me just because you thought my actions seem like I didn't like you, but every ounce of me was screaming for you when I'm near you, I got quiet when I'm near you and when your skin brushed against mine, electricity shot through me like nobody ever did. Now, you're getting married soon and I'm still stuck here, wondering if I am completely over you, it has already been more than 3 years, why does it have to hold me back, why you mean so much to me, whenever I see you, the way you look at me brings me back to those moments when we hung out. I miss them, most of all, I miss you, but you'll never know.