STRANGER

I don't know why I am feeling like this, why I am acting the way I should, why I have the urge to talk to you every time, why I act weird all around you, why I don't want to feel the way I feel about you, why do you make me smile so widely with the littlest things you say and do, why are you so nice to me when you know you are not going to care when it ends, why I am confused about it, why I don't want to admit it, why I don't want my walls to crumble down for anyone not even you, why I want more than this, why I'm drawing a line between us, why I expect so much from anyone, why I would have this dream come true of meeting someone perfect like the one in my dreams, why I thought this was wrong, why my heart hurts whenever I thought about you and her that there's a possibility something goes on between you two, why I hurt so much thinking just about it, why I try to resist everything I'm feeling and cast it away, why I put on a fake smile, why I hope even though I know nothing will happen, why I care what you think, why I don't want you to get hurt, there's so much that I don't know why I feel them, but I never understand, I'd rather be clueless than know so much

That's why I deny my feelings for everyone and anyone, till I am sure to break these walls of mine and be prone to hurt. It takes time for me to accept you into my heart, I can't let my efforts go to waste. I believe I will let it fall when I meet the right one that I feel so comfortable and happy with. I just want it to happen quick and sweet. I just want to happy and be loved, that's all.