STRANGER

So many times I have the decision to step out of my house and go explore the world, but something stopped me the next instant. I can't venture out on my own, at least not yet, I need money and time and be independent myself to be able to be responsible for anything. I don't mind going out alone and just observing and noticing the strangers that you have seen before or not, walking past you, sneaking glances at you, thinking how do you like and what they think of you when they see you. Being alone is not lonely, I like the idea of not knowing anybody and listen to your music as you walk past so many people from different walks of life. I like thinking that people that walks past me lead a happy life and they are happy. I am not afraid. I don't judge people, so I don't really care if they judge me or not.
I bought MacDonalds home today, when I was at the outlet, there was this guy that kept on looking at me, but the way he look didn't creep me out, it just got me nervous. After I collect my food, I saw him again, he smiled at me, I smiled back but I don't even remember seeing him before, however, there was this... very very strange yet familiar feeling about him. Oh well, I couldn't handle him taking my breath away so I just walked away nervously but with awesome swag k. :D
I have the thought of just going out of house, but I forgot I have not enough cash on me, and my hair is in a mess.  I have a very bad habit of repeating songs that I love, and I repeat it like forever, till I found another favourite song. If I Die Young - The Band Perry. (Y)
This sudden thought always comes to me: Where is my future dream guy??? I sometimes feel sad that I don't have a guy that loves me and dotes on me, and makes me feel special, I wish I had one. Soon, please God.